a meadow, walking
lost in converstation and thought
she forgot nothing but where i was
to let me bide easing
she paused with a wink, a nod, and a smile
i caught enough to miss her
at least not for a little while

and one day you'll find
i got just what i wanted here
in empty books and the baby hooks
with the names of the girls with a dull embrace

hey, hello, how are you
didn't we meet at a costume ball
she laughed, no, it's different, it was not
a dark alley pissing on a wall
that's when i knew we're meant to fall

and one day you will find
i got just what i wanted here
some old soot and the vacant look
of the girls who just enjoy the chase

and so we talked to no one else
of premonitions come and gone
everything you know is wrong, she said
i know you know you're wrong, she said
let's go, i know the way to go
within, without
you're so lucky to let this out

and one day you'll find
i got just what i wanted here
a cracked rook on the highest brook
straying out at the girls i can't disgrace

i love you, i slipped and she began to come
she caught watching, said i'm never far
couldn't even tell me you what want
she wanted what she wanted and i felt cold
i know i'm gone from someone

maybe i saw you kicking a can
leading to lambs to gutters to understand
why they're all boys and you're a man
i'm sure you bet them all to star
staring at your noon stopwatch

and one day i'll find
i got just what i wanted here
a dull glen with the never then
of a girl with the gravity [?]

she spoke in the lilt of insatiable chase
all vain glory and cruel face
of riddle rhymes i can't replace, not now
not every with what i take

to my disdain her apathy hurt
and i was only trying to flirt
little still known of my fate
the oracle hung around like deadweight

and one day we'll all find
we get just what we wanted here
broken arms and some tarnished charms
of a jewel gone astray as [?]

so now it's time for questions
it's no answers and all smiles
pleasing and amusing as i
pleasedfor a little while
she said, let's go for a walk or picture show
one wish, honest
to wipe away the loneliness

escape by a river to take her in
she cursed out loud and pushed me in
now let's see if you'll sink or swim
i'll do what you can't do for, and then
i'll take you through all of it
the rumors and the lies and the bullshit
we'll wash away all our sin and grit
yours without and mine shoved in forever
and ever, always there, forever
and ever

and one day i'll find
she got just what she wanted here
the lazy looks and the things i took
from the ones who can't escape the frame

tied to a tree, trying to kiss her bow
trying to pry inside that soul
she turned her face as if to go
said within, nowhere else to go
i know i love you
as simple as i'm sweet
she hissed, you know you know no love
it does not
repeat
and repeat
and repeat
and repeat
and repeat
and repeat
and repeat
and repeat
and repeat
and repeat
and repeat
and repeat
and repeat
and repeat
and repeat

and one day she'll find
i've got just what i wanted here
wandered such for a little luck
from a girl cannot run the race

i am the girl of the bitter embrace
i am the girl you'll forever chase
with your loins burning, all eyes of hate
i'm pulling up and out to face
what do you need, you don't even know
a sad lone crane standing in the shallows
waiting for wind to blow

you've got it all wrong
i said, i fear
i see what you mean
and i hear what you hear
there is division in all that's at stake
but look at the beatiful crest of the wave i create

and maybe someday i will tell the truth
when i find someone who wants the truth
maybe someday i will tell the truth
when i find someone who wants the truth

and one day i'll find
i got just what i wanted here
a lonely place with my mind awake
against the girl with the girls with the cruel face

hey, look out, there goes a girl
who watched me diving for my pearls
hey, look out, there goes a girl
a woman who watched me dive for my pearls
one kiss, honest
i thought i said i wanted this
one kiss, honest
i said i thought i wanted this

Zwan. Written in between sets 12/14/00.